You are my sunshine...

May you know the significance of your being

You are a blessing to me

I thank God everyday that he brought us together

Your touch, your hugs, your kisses, so loving and reassuring that we are in the right place at the right time always.

You are an amazing person and you know me like no one else knows me.

Thank you and God Bless you as we celebrate Christmas and everyday...

The Fulfilling Feeling...

 The fulfilling feeling of holidays with the family...

 

Home-made "coquito" Spanish eggnog, smiles, hugs, laughs, great conversation, photos and how can I forget the great food. I look forward to this feeling every year as we gather with our most special loved ones and celebrate the birth of our dear Jesus Christ.

 

It "is" the most wonderful time of the year.

 

Let your loved ones know how special they are this holiday season.

 

Know what you're celebrating and why you're celebrating.

 

Look into the depth of things and ask yourself questions, challenge yourself to keep true to yourself, your morals, your beliefs. 

 

You are you and that's it. 

 

Let's remember this holiday season to be positive, look on the bright side, and always believe that things will work out for the best. 

 

There will always be trials and tribulations. Everyone must go through rough waters to sail on a calm, smooth sea of life.

 

Take it each step at a time and seek support from your loved ones when needed.

 

I will always be here for you as much as I can.

 

Gossip is negative, let's try to minimize this - it is NOT good in any way, shape, or form.

 

Try to see the good in people if they haven't done anything to make you believe there's anything negative about them.  

 

Love:Peace:Harmony

Potential

Open your mind now as you read this,

Imagine that anything is possible and can be made into reality.

 

Set your mind free to see what you can be,

Unlock your potential within.

 

Do what you can now to fulfill your future success.

Know what you want, then plan the steps on how to get there.

 

Intellect

 

This world is mysterious as the Lord works in mysterious ways.

 

One should know their true potential and challenge it to the fullest.

 

There are no limits, not even the sky - as you know we've been in outer space.

 

Try to exhaust yourself intellectually, you won't - there is too many things to try in life and there will continue to

 

be limitless opportunities.

 

Can you see them? You must identify, plan, proceed to action, and keep on going.

 

Why stop? There's no age, no determining factor on who should and shouldn't - no rhyme or reason.

 

Just live life to the fullest always...

 

Converse with those that have similar interests - this motivates you and provides you with a support system.

humble

Just feeling humble :)

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My Favorite time of the year

It's my favorite time of the year and my loved ones will soon be near. I can't wait, but when the time comes may it stand still, and then take its time. It will be a fabulous 2 weeks away with the fam. The holidays is when I tend to get more sentimental because they are all usually so far away. I hope I don't sound too corny. (smile)

I hope they know how special and important they are to me. It has been 6 years and at times it's still so difficult. They are not just a phone call or even a drive away where I can say hey let's meet up later and go for lunch or dinner or shopping. It would be a 20 hour drive or a 3 1/2 hour airplane ride.

So Lord help me, I pray that our trip works out and nothing comes in the way , 21 days away and I will feel complete :)

I look to you for guidance, strength, and wisdom always. May everyone be blessed with health and happiness.

Love
Cat

Thankful for you!

The best gift in life are the special people around you so don't forget to let them know who they are - but not just today, everyday. You're special and I love you! Thank you Lord!

Just a few words can say a lot...

"I am beautiful no matter what they say" (Christina Aguilera). Just look in the mirror and say that to yourself every day. Love yourself, Jesus loves you unconditionally. When you're feeling down or low - just think of all the positive and great things in your life right away and get happy!! It's starting to work for me. The other things don't matter anymore. I constantly feel like my soul is evolving and maturing in a great direction.

VENT ~ Then Good News!

WHY? HOW? UUURRGGGGHHHH! and VENT! Then Good News!

I don't get it...how do people get away with murder? Let's do away with the negativity... Let's see - with God's guidance, strength and protection. That's what keeps me going.

A true team will work hard together towards a common goal supporting each others functions for the best outcome at all times. If not, the scale becomes unbalanced and will eventually topple over.

Good - News; I learned a new Christmas song on the guitar - that's 4! So now I can play: (1) Feliz Navidad, (2) White Christmas, (3) Jingle bell Rock, (4) Rocking around the Christmas tree! WOOOHOOOO! It's going so well... I look forward to learning more. I just have to make sure that I put much practice time aside to get better and better. 

Life has fastballs, curve balls, softballs, and foul balls. It's you're responsibility to do the right thing and make the right call. Love life, live life, make the most of it and be thankful always. 

Reminisce... then HUH?

 

Reminisce - that was the "alter-ego / superstar" nickname I gave myself when I saw myself as a future famous R&B singer...memories...

 

We had our church wedding last year which was more than special and everything I could've expected and more. I felt like I fell short - I wasn't feeling to well this day...my back was in extreme pain, I know I was overworked in trying to get everything ready for the wedding and I didn't get the rest that I needed. I overdid it and was in pain for most of the day with my back hurting and feet cramping... other than that I was very happy and enjoyed. I hope that because of my pain that I didn't come across as distant or "different". I am me and would've gone a little wilder partying if I was 100% - but everything was just as great as was expected! I just want to say sorry if I wasn't as 'amped' as usual :), And I feel horrible that I wanted to cry and tried and nothing, b/c I was so dehydrated - I guess that's a good thing because I didn't mess up my make-up, lol.

 

So I received a call from the doctor's office and the blood work is back - one of the items that my blood was tested for was not detected even though I had the vaccination as a child- STRANGE, but possible in few cases. I had to be part of the few cases- have to get a shot again :- / ... oookkkk.

Bubble

 
41 days to go until I'm on my trip to FLORIDA to see the fam. Next two year's vacation will be Europe & Cancun - hopefully...that's the plan anyway. 
 
Well, my head feels like its spinning - so much going on and so much to do. Just went for blood work the day before yesterday, I was sooo nervous. About 5 years ago, I tried to donate blood and it was a horrible experience. I wanted it to work so bad- but I started feeling faint and had to stop mid-way because I felt like I was going to faint. Well guess what - yesterday was no problem - piece of cake!! Well I also know that the difference in needle size is way different. Butterfly needles... no problem! Just don't get me near an IV. Last year when we came back from DR early due to my acute bronchitis, I couldn't hold anything down - not even water - I was so dehydrated so it was that much harder to find my veins. It took 4-5 people to poke me to get the needle in and it was very painful. 
 
I feel so trapped right now in my career...I know that's it's just a matter of time until I am where I want to be... so I will try to focus on that. I will also try to focus on all the other positive things going on in my life.
 
But then there's the fact that I'm 27 and still struggling with my weight, I know it's a lifetime effort but I just want to be a size 4 and wear a bikini. I was once a 16/17 and got down to a tight 6/8, now I'm an 8/10 depending on the brand, why is it so hard now to get down to that 4??!!! Hopefully I can do it before I have kids!! I woke up a little grumpy this morning and feeling fat, I was a bit rude to my love and I feel horrible because I shouldn't take it out on him... so babe - I'm so sorry! I love you. See I'm not perfect, everyone makes mistakes.
 
So far 2 work-out nights this week dancing with the new Dance Central game on xbox Kinect which is my fave so far, a little achy but that's to be expected.
 
Now I need to get out of this bubble that I'm in... Let's DO IT!!! POP POP POP!!!
 
 

Exhaustion

Wow this weekend sure was exhausting... lots of housework going on with the bathroom mini renovation. We got a new bathtub and hubby and father-in-law tackled it while I scraped wall paper in the downstairs bathroom. I got almost half of it off - but it's very stubborn! It must have been there forever! I also washed and changed the downstairs curtains. Then I cooked lunch, dinner, and dessert throughout the day. It was non-stop for all of us. Then towards the evening I had about 5 glasses of wine - was feeling good and happy ... and tired.

Well we still have our work cut out for us this week: spackelling, complete wallpaper removal, and then painting. Pheeeewwww - looking forward to being done with that~

To my little Sister & To my little Brother:

To my little Sister:

Little sister I am sorry that through your childhood & adolescent years that I could not be there with you and for you to share all the special moments that sisters should share.

I'm sorry that I couldn't comb your hair before school anymore

I'm sorry that I haven't been able to physically be there for you

I hope you know that I've missed you and I've missed spending so much time with you.

I hope that hasn't affected you in the long run, and I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive me.

I had hoped that we hadn't sheltered you when you were in NY because we loved you too much and as a result you were extremely shy.

I hope you know that I love you and I sometimes still see you as my little 'baby' sister.

I see how you've grown and I see how beautiful you have grown inside and out as you've come out of your shell. 
Don't rush to grow up, take life as it comes and make the best of every day and moment - time flies.

You've matured and have proven yourself to be caring, loving, loyal, intelligent, respectful, considerate, fun - and so much more that I could've hoped  you would become. 

Which I'm so happy for!  

I look forward to continuously watching you grow and succeed in everything that you do. Strive for the best - because YOU CAN accomplish anything that you set your mind to.

I love you and keep on going Sis! P.S. See you soon!

To my little Brother:

To my little brother I am sorry that we didn't get to spend our early adulthood together and that I haven't been near to share all the special moments that I've missed the past couple of years.

I hope you can forgive me for all the 'sibling rivalry' that we had while growing up together, I guess that's a part of growing up

I hope that you forgive me for the horrible names I've called you when we would argue - I am truly sorry, and I didn't mean it.

I hope you know that even with all that, I always looked out for you and wanted nothing but to protect you

I'm sorry that I couldn't protect you from everything

I'm sorry if I made it seem that I didn't want you to tag along when I went out alone or with friends- I actually preferred that you came, I felt more comfortable. 

I was more upset that I wasn't trusted to go out alone.

Now that I'm older I understand that it wasn't that they didn't trust me, it was that there are lots of crazy things that happen in this world - and that is true. They just wanted to protect us.  

I've seen you evolve into this fun, caring, intelligent, diligent, responsible, providing young man - this is a lot more that I could've hoped for you and congrats!

I'm happy for you and will always wish the best for you! Continue to Always strive for the best - because YOU CAN accomplish anything that you set your mind to.

I love you Bro and see you soon!

Who's listening?

Well I know that Hubby and Mom tune in to my Blog as well as my Aunt sometimes. I know that God is the first to know what I feel and when I'm writing here. SO... who else? Well, either way ... it doesn't matter - whoever does - great - and I hope that you find out who I really am on the inside. Also hoping to give some good advice when I can. Who ever doesn't- that's ok- if it's not meant to be than it's not meant for you. :)


Here's my plan before going to Florida for the holidays: To get in better shape and lose a few pounds. I'm not using a scale, I'm going by how I feel in my clothes and how I feel in general. We went grocery shopping and we bought the norm food (healthy), fruits, veggies, juices (trying to minimize my soda intake).


So I started the gym (again) on Monday 11/1/2010 (DAY 1) and ran for 10 whole minutes straight, which is good for not having gone to the gym in almost 2 months! I did 22 min in total on the treadmill and then the last 10 minutes of cardio on the eliptical. In total I did 2 miles and burned about 220 calories. It fealt great! Tropical smoothie Cafe - Smoothie (w/splenda) for dinner.


Tuesday 11/2/2010 (DAY 2) - went back to the gym and alternated smaller jogging /walking intervals - kept myself on point - total 25min on treadmill, 8 minutes on Eliptical. I did about 2 miles and burned another 200 cals. Tropical smoothie Cafe - Smoothie (w/splenda) for dinner, then later on a bowl of cereal.

Yesterday, (Wed. 11/3/2010) I took a break, had 2 haircut appointments which turned out great! I had 1 home-made taco for dinner...so far I've noticed a large decrease in appetite which is good as long as I make sure to eat enough and to eat healthy. I know it, and I can feel that I'm on the right track!


I also continued my school research and I need to take about 4 pre-requisites before I can apply to the health program that I wish to apply for. It may not be until Spring or Fall 2012 that I begin the actual degree program - but that's ok because there is no rush!

Future Plans

I was having a frustrating day so I am writing because I need to vent a bit. Why aren't people recognized enough for the difference they make and for the work they do? Ok, I'm DONE! I won't mention any other negative things here. This is not what I want to do here today. Let me talk about something positive that's going on with me. Well...I paid off my credit cards today (only one left to pay off). Then I will work on getting the car payments and school loans down and eventually done with. Lets see if the plan works!

The plan is to go for the career for my lifetime that will be my main career and hopefully have our child by 3 - 4 years. That career that I'm seriously considering is NURSING!! By that time my car will be paid off and the only debt should be school and mortgage. Looking forward to this feels good.

The next great thing is that there at 48 Days to go until we go to Florida for the holidays to be with my lovely family. I can't wait. My favorite holidays are coming up very soon: Mom's birthday, Thanksgiving, and Christmas!

Thanks and have a great day!

By the way y'all - I WON FIRST PLACE FOR THE HALLOWEEN CONTEST AT WORK WHERE I DRESSED UP AS CHARLIE CHAPLIN last Friday!! WOOOHOOOO!!!!!!

Can't Wait!

I think that part of my lonliness is due to the fact that I haven't seen most of my immediate family in over a year. I usually don't go that long without seeing them...I miss them so very much...Do you know what its like to have your immediate family so far away that its not as easy to see them as often as you'd like or as often as you've been used to? I've grown very strong through the years and have learned to live with it, but sometimes its just not easy. What helps me is that I have them close in my heart always carrying them with me everywhere I go with everything I do. That's part of why today I am a strong independant woman. On my own since 21 with the wonderful support of my hubby. Can't wait to finally see my family for the holidays in December!

Love you all and see you soon!

To My Love: thanks for the comment below, of course I appreciate you being my perfect match- you make me stronger by making sure that I always feel loved and that I'm always ok. I love you~

What's going on?

What's going on?

Do you sometimes have conflicting thoughts in your mind as to what you want to do and what you should do? What about the fact that sometimes the idea of something sounds great but you may not actually want to pursue it? Which voice do you listen to? Your gut instinct or your logical reasoning? HHMMM ... God are you listening? I know you are, but can you show me clearer direction? I will pray. Feeling a lonely feeling inside ... I need to pray.

Future Plans

I have joy to share with you! The leaves are even more beautiful now as they turn more different colors.

Halloween is almost upon us, we're having a costume contest at work tomorrow and I have a great costume idea. I will not reveal it until tomorrow.

 

I hope it works out - exciting!

 

On another note, I've been thinking about my future and I think I have a plan! As soon as it's definite I will post it here. I know that the career that I'm in is just for now and I've been trying to figure out what I want to do as my full time job. I feel that my calling is in Healthcare so that's the route that I'm taking and it feels right. This will take a few more years of school to complete, but it will be worth it. Thank you God in showing me the direction in which I'm meant to go.

 

More on Future Plans soon...

 

 

 

Make Happy ~ Be Happy!

I called Grandma today to let her and grandpa know that we purchased our tickets to go over there for the holidays! She was so happy to hear that! She's such a happy woman...sometimes I just think of her and call her...she gets so happy.  

~

If you think of someone - call them

If you love someone - tell them

If you miss someone - hug them

If you love someone - show it

Be there for your loved ones ... they will be there for you...

Life is short, don't let it pass you by... take a minute to relax and appreciate each and every thing around you big or small - watch and see how time slows down for you to enjoy it a bit.

Every person counts, how will you let them know that they are a special part of your life? It doesn't matter if they even notice - you will know the difference and that should make all the difference.

How do you feel about yourself as a person standing here on Earth? Only you can make yourself the person you would like to be - so don't just stand there and do it. No one is going to do it for you. Are you happy? Let it shine through and spread your joy.

Wake up happy, go to bed content, Thank God for all the gifts he has given you. Pray for the answers that you seek and they shall be revealed by the Lord. 

Have your goals, plan the steps to get there, and act on starting on your path. Research, Plan, Execute.

Well, that's all for today!

Do you know me?

The leaves are beautifully changing as they make the sunrise and sunset that much more breath-taking. I am reminded that my favorite holidays are close by; Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Year's. It will be a special one this year - its been about 4-5 years since I've spent the holidays with my immediate family and I'm looking forward to it for Christmas and New Year's.

Every minute is special - make it count. Thank you lord for the family in my life. Just wanted to give a special shout-out to hubby today. He's my number 1 and knows me in and out. He makes me stronger and is there with input when I need it. He's my best friend, my soul mate - he gets me... always and everyday. He knows what I like, what I dislike, what I love... when I'm blue I don't even have to say anything - he just knows and knows what to do. Like Ying and Yang...like the piece that completes my puzzle. I'm happy and content to share this with you and wish the same for everyone.

How well do you really know me?

I consider myself a strong, confident, and independent woman...

Loving, Caring, expecting the same in return.

Family First always is what I learned from my mother.

True love has been proven by my soul mate who is my husband and best friend.

A mother can be a friend, in fact she is also my best friend...my role model from youth as well.

My brother and sister need to know how much I love them - they are a part of me and who I am.

You can count on me for guidance, advice, support, and unconditional love.

Mis Abuelitos - que dios me los cuide por siempre. Tienen que saber como de especial son. Siempre feliz, carinosos y llenos de allegria - los quiero mucho.

My Dad - I've forgiven you and love you and will continue to build our bond.

Abuelos (paternal)- Penas que no los llegue a conocer mas, espero que esten en paz en el cielo con Dios...los amo. 

Hermana Mayor - Ojala que nos mantenemos en contacto por siempre ahora y por siempre. Te amo.

Sobrinas - Las quiero mucho, son buenas, hermosas y que siempre tenga lo que es necesario en la vida: dios, familia, amor y salud.

My mother and father-in-law - they show me unconditional love and for that I am thankful, thank you for treating me like your own. I love you guys always!

Titi - I can't forget about you! My Godmother and aunt - you also 'get' me. We do have a special connection that I can't deny. Love you!

Cousins, Brother-in-law, sisters-in-law - Remember you hold a special place in my heart always.

God Bless the Kiddies - Joshua, Sebastian, Jessie, Jayden, and all!!

These are my most intimate thoughts that go through my mind day and night I hope that my love for everyone around me shines through.

I'm not perfect, I have my doubts an insecurities - but this blog post today is not about that at all. XOXO

Spread love, Hope for peace, let yourself be heard...

Yes, You Can Direct Your Life

'Direct' your life as you want it to play out.

I'm not always as direct as I know I can be - I don't know if it's because I want to avoid any chance of conflict or because I assume that someone's on the same page as me - but I want to try to always be direct and receive the same in return. This is the only way to see things clearly and know more or less that the outcome will be clear. I can sometimes be spontaneous, but I am a planner at heart with everything that I do. I plan "empty" slots to leave room for spontaneity sometimes - LMAO - even I find this funny! But when I'm on a planned mission - there's no stopping me. I believe that's a positive asset; to be goal-oriented almost always. I like having long-term and short-term goals and re-evaluate them every now and then if necessary. Before, when I didn't plan, I felt like I was just taking a stroll, going through the motions and watching the time go by. Ever since I started directing my life, I've stopped to smell the 'coffee', enjoyed family-quality time and just the little things in life that I used to take for granted. I do feel like I live my life to the fullest and I will keep pushing myself to do anything that I set my mind to!

In writing this and in my life (in general), I hope to only motivate others and be a positive influence. Ask if you want to know.

Just a few things that I don't like to get caught up in - not that I don't do it - but I try not to and don't enjoy the feeling it leaves me with afterwards... gossip, heavy mockery to myself or others, out casting, asinine arguing, dishonesty ... anything negative. I try to stay away from negative energy. I'm also a very defensive person and need to learn how to knock down my wall - I need to let things go and not let things get to me. I think its that I get overwhelmed and don't know how to respond. I must practice trying to ignore it and just let it roll off my back. When I respond, its because I feel negative energy coming at me - I'll practice ducking and not let it penetrate my positive energy bubble. :)

As I've mentioned before =  POSITIVITY : POWER ... I truly believe in this.


I AM ME :) - Take me as I am, Love me as I am - I do.

I've been reading "The Alchemist" and it's about a shepherd boy on his mission to finding what his "Personal Legend" is - what he's meant to do in life. The author discusses "omens" (signs) that will lead the boy to finding the answer to his life's quest. I'm three-quarters of the way done with the book and I'm really enjoying it. It's synonymous to my quest in life. I would recommend it. Can't wait to see how the story ends!




Future Topic: Budgeting is for Everyone

Una Experencia Maravillosa

Going to Puerto Rico was wonderful. Some of my favorite events were outdoors with nature - especially El Yunque Rainforest as well as swimming in the Mosquito Bioluminescent Bay at Vieques Island. What a trip! My ideal vacation includes awaking early enough to enjoy each and everyday to the fullest - it just makes the days seem longer which is the best feeling when on vacation. Starting off the mornings with PR's finest Yaucono espresso-blend coffee, mmm... looking up into the sky to the bright blue and white sky hovering over the green scenery rich in fields of mountains, palm trees, and the ocean. Then breathing in the fresh clear air of the Caribbean. This experience brings an overflowing feeling of peacefullness and joy; it feels so good and so right. We enjoyed some time with my cousins and cousin's husband as they joined us in PR from NY. It was great seeing my older sister that lives in PR as well as my 2 nieces there. I was also able to meet my husband's grandfather, aunts, uncles, and cousins for the first time and got to see his grandmother and aunt again. I enjoyed visiting family from our homeland. I will miss them and I will miss Puerto Rico ... I hope to go back soon...Te amo Puerto Rico.

Seek Answers from Within

Don’t take things for granted, be thankful for every little thing in life and realize that every little event counts. Your small decisions can affect your ‘big picture’ as well. Think things through logically or at least try. Emotions may get in the way of decision making - but try to think outside the box as if you were on the outside looking into a situation – what does it look like? What should be done? What’s the right thing to do? Go with your gut feeling and ask God to guide you. Do you walk in the light of God? I will continue to try as best I can.

I just opened a (mini) bible of Psalms and Proverbs that I have on my desk (New Testament). Here’s what I saw first:

“By faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that the things which are seen were not made of things which are visible.” Hebrews 11:3

Communication:

It’s always good to talk things through…yelling, confusion or miscommunication can lead to arguments and disappointment. Ask questions to get to the root of what the issue is, then try to think first… even if you need a few minutes, it’s ok say that. Then come back and ask the other person if it’s ok to discuss the issue again. Ask the right questions to gain clarity. Try not to be quick to judge. Try to reverse the situation and ask yourself this – are you acting rationally?  Let the other person explain. This is not easy, it must be practiced over and over until you get better.

“…to the moon and back…” 10/6/2010

I love you to the moon and back…that’s what we say (mom, bro, sis) – we’ve said it to my little sister since she was a toddler and now we still say it to each other (she’s 15). I heard it in a movie about years ago and it stuck. I say it to hubby too! I love this saying – it truly means a lot to me. My sun, my moon, and my stars that’s what my loved ones mean to me; they will always be there through the brightness and darkness and can help you navigate through the right path with encouragement and support.

XOXO

Part II - 10/5/2010

Motivate!

Sometimes I feel down because of trivial things. I do consider myself a positive person most times, but with myself I’m not always a positive motivator. I need to remind myself of a few things when I’m feeling low - here they are:

I AM important enough to matter, so I will make sure that I’m heard.

I AM surrounded by people who love, care and support me.

I DO love myself as the way God created me. (I LOVE ME : I LOVE GOD!)

I AM a strong woman

I AM different

I CAN make a difference

And if someone in my life doesn’t feel this way about me than I may need to cut them out of my life. I know this sounds drastic, but it’s not worth the energy it takes to become stressed. I have distanced myself from negativity in my life and will continue to do so as needed. I will continue to try to help people see the positive in things, in life – I will try – so help me God. They are important enough to matter – they are worth it too.

Feel free to apply the above motivators to yourself as well because you ARE worth it!

Armor - 10/5/2010

Mom sent me her notes today from Sunday service and they discussed our armor; how to recognize evil and shield yourself from it and overcome it by looking to God. “Be aware that temptation leads to battle to do something wrong as well as distraction and doubts [open the bible and read].” It’s funny because this morning I was going to say something that I shouldn’t ... and I just started sneezing out of no where! I took that as a sign. It made me second think was I was about to say, thought about the armor discussion, and I wound up not saying anything. It felt like the right thing to do – which is great! Deep down in side I knew that I shouldn’t but I was ‘tempted’ to.

Interested things and new discoveries happen everyday – look within you and look to God.

 Looking forward to starting to pack for PR and revise my checklist of things to take and things to do! 3 day countdown!

CRAZY Weekend! - 10/4/2010

So excited for our vacation on Friday to Puerto Rico – Can’t wait! Hope can don’t get sick, I feel a cold coming on. I will fight it until the end. I feel like this weekend flew by and I didn’t even get any of my personal things accomplished. I have 3 days to get ready and the fourth (Thursday) to finalize packing. Looking forward to the breath-taking views and being one with my land of ancestry. Also, being reunited with my nieces and sister. It’s been 9 years since I’ve seen my nieces – I do miss them – I still feel like they are little girls. They’re now (almost) 21 & 22…

Hubby & I were in NJ all day Saturday visiting my in-laws, nieces and nephews, we ran errands, and briefly (very briefly) stopped in Brooklyn to drop off some learning books for my intelligent & adorable nephew. Got home around 10:30pm. I wanted to attend service yesterday, but had 2 hair appointments that took all day. I would like to catch it tonight online (or tomorrow) – it will feel good, I know it! Please lord bless us on this journey, keep us safe, healthy and happy.

My brother got his 1^st apartment on Saturday – OH SO PROUD!! Now he’s a full blown independent adult! Independence is great, also a big responsibility that I know he can take on. I was so happy to hear and I know that he’s extremely happy about it too! Love you bro!

It’s a little chilly out now, the air is dry, Fall is upon us!

Misc 10/1/2010

Had my guitar lesson last night and I'm learning a lot! Can't wait to get better! Also, today - TGIF! One more week until VACATION! I sure can use it. I also took time today to put together some great information and a tentative itinerary for PR. This weekend will consist of cleaning up, a few errands, and some family time. Taking our lovebirds; Cocoa & Pebbles to the in-laws until we get back from PR so that they're not lonely while we're away. Will miss them! XOXO

He will endure as long as the sun, as long as the moon, through all generations. -Psalm 72:5

Today I spoke to God 9/30/2010

On my way to work this morning I turned off the radio and decided to say some prayers and talk to God.  I thanked him for every single person around me and for everything that we have around us.  One of the people I thanked God for was my Husband; and how from the time I was a teenager I would pray that I would find my true love and marry in my early 20’s - That’s exactly how it happened. We met when I was 19, almost 20 and we got married at 22. To this day I know that he’s the one for me forever and I’m truly blessed. The next person I was thankful for was my Mom. I love my mom. She is who I’ve always inspired to be like. I hope I’ve made her proud. She was there 100% always, no matter what – and still is. She knows what to say, when to say and how to say.  I hope everyone knows how special they are!

It’s almost noon now and I just received a message from my wonderful husband that reads: “Babe I am so blessed and thankful to have you in my life. I love everything about us and wouldn’t change anything for the world. Love u” – it’s just so crazy how our minds are so much in-sync and how we think similar things at the same times. That just makes me so happy that I never have to question our love for each other – Thank you God for this wonderful partner in life.

Advice to you: Please be thankful for everyone and everything around you! And don't be shy to talk to your God - God will always listen.

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After reading this post Mom writes:

Cat,

I am so blessed to have wonderful children like you, Mando and Jessica in my life. You made tears come into my eyes just reading how you described your mom. I wish I had done more..... I know what kind of daughter I have, one with a good head on her shoulders, one that is responsible, a survivor and independent.....Love you to the moon and back....

Mom

Then I respond:

Mom,

I want you to know that YOU DID ENOUGH! Don't ever think otherwise. That's why I'm me - because of you! Thank you! I'm also thankful to have siblings like Mando and Jessica as well as I'm thankful you have a partner that shows you the true meaning of love in every which way. I have it and always wished it for you because it's such a wonderful thing!

Love ya, Cat

*Thanks Babe for your lovely comment to my blog post!

What to do? 9/29/2010

9/29/2010

What to do? I don’t like asking myself this question, because I’d rather focus on getting things done. It is a general question as well. I feel like I need to look at my goals again for the next 5-10 years and just solidify them a bit. This will help lead me in the direction in which I would like to go – it works well for me. And if I need to make changes along the way… its ok – nothing is concrete in life. I would like to just list some ideas of what I would like to accomplish in the near future:

Next 1-2 years: Make sure that I’m happy with my rewarding career – if changes need to be made, then so be it.

Get involved with a church. Continue advancing with guitar + singing.  Pay off all debt. Travel to Europe – 2-3 weeks if possible. Make sure all home improvement projects are done; inside and out. Continue always to do ALL the artistic-expressive things I love to do.

2-4 Years: Start a family; additions to our family. Don’t stop doing the things I love. 

This is all my notes for now. I will come back to this and re-evaluate to solidify my goals.

Just some motivational advice:

Once you know what you want to do in life – go for it – plan it out.  I believe that everything take steps. It you fail a few times –its ok, get back on track and keep going until you reach your destination. Always remember to be yourself!

I’ve been asking myself – what do I really want to do in life and I find myself thinking in circles. I know that this isn’t it – I know there’s more. I know that I want to help people in some way, shape, or form. Just can’t find the answer to my question. I’m praying that God can help show me what my purpose is and I’ll work on getting there.

God's Work

This weekend started off with the celebration of my nephew's 3rd birthday. I did get some one-on-one play time with him in the backyard before guests came. I couldn't sit down before he would tell me to get up and play again- I loved it - especially when he went to catch a mini-basketball and turned around and said he got dizzy. I'm glad I was able to happily play with him for a while. It was also nice celebrating my aunt / God-mother's birthday at the same time who is also very special. We all had a nice time with each other. 

 

Early Sunday  I spent the majority of the day with my loving husband. He is good to me - I thank God for him everyday. It was a somewhat sad day when I found out that a very close friend of mine's mother passed exactly 7 days ago. I felt horrible that I didn't even know, that I wasn't there for her. Later on I felt the need to surprise her and go see her (almost like God was leading me to her). I took a rose plant, donuts, and a card - she was happy to see me and we talked a while. I got to know her dad, sister and saw her kids again. It did feel good and I hope that our friendship continues to grow stronger. She is a genuinely good person. My husband understood what I had to do this day - he has always supported my every step / decision in life. He also brings logic and reason when I need it.

 

I feel light being shed to help lead my way more and more...day by day... by God. Spoke to mom yesterday and she invited me to view the mass from her church that she attended Sunday. I'm happy to hear her talk about the sermon that was delivered - she's very excited about it and that's great. I actually did stay up to watch the mass and I was enlightened - it did feel great. I want to be closer to the Lord and understand his word and his workings. Check out the videos on traps and tricks (from mom's church) - this can help us become stronger in realizing the evil and resisting temptations around us.

Link: http://livestream.mediambc.com/Live_Stream/Archives.html - there are 7 parts on the right side of the viewing window that you can watch. Enjoy!

 

Currently, I'm looking for a church. Today I asked my supervisor about his church and he thought I would love it. I also am going to contact a friend about her church. I will do some research to find the right fit with God's help and guidance.

 

Thank you God for everything in my life and for being there for me at all times. I'm on the right path.

'To get something you never had, you have to do something you never did.' Just got this message via text this evening from 3. Love it! Will continue tomorrow!

Proverbs 9/24/2010

A friend read my blog on 9/22 about the article “Opening the Door; Fighting Against Our Gifts” and recommended a good read “The Alchemist” by Paulo Coelho. Just in reading the intro it begins to discuss God’s gifts and how we naturally fight against them. I only got to page 10 since I was having a great time puppy-sitting 3-month old Maggie last night. All she wanted to do was play and that’s exactly what I was there for. Therefore, I look forward to picking up that book tonight again.

Today is starting off slow, but I know that it will be a great day. Thank you God for my gifts and my life. I just wanted to mention that my mom was recently inspired to start writing as well and started going back to church on Sundays (which I want to do as well). Here are her notes from mass that she sent me:

Sunday – July 19, 2010

Proverbs 18-6

A fool’s lips walk into a fight, and his mouth invites a beating.

Proverbs – 18-7

A fool’s mouth is his ruin, and his lips are a snare to his soul.

Words – (mouth) speaks from the heart....

The Fools mouth – say no God, do not seek God – worry, fear and negativity.

Genesis 3-23

Words are powerful – my words

Proverbs 18 -21

Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruits.

 Death and life power of the tongue live with the consequences

Proverbs 6-2

For the LORD gives wisdom; from his mouth come knowledge and understanding;

Snare and taken words of the mouth. My words.

Need to guard & watch our words and mouth

Proverbs 13-3

He who guards his lips guards his life, but he who speaks rashly will come to ruin.

Guards mouth

Proverbs 21-23

He who guards his mouth and his tongue keeps himself from calamity.

Keep soul from trouble

Preserve life and qualify of life. Keep out of trouble

1. Limit – our words # of words. More you talk more you sin
2. Measure  - are the words appropriate
3. Qualify – pass certain criteria – certain grade, standard

You can have what you say.

Proverbs 15-28

The heart of the righteous ponders how to answer, but the mouth of the wicked pours out evil things. Study how to answer.

Proverbs 16-23

The heart of the wise makes his speech judicious and adds persuasiveness to his lips.

Learning to his lips. Allow for time for your heart to study what you are going to answer. Choose words of life. Don’t set a snare for you soul.

Proverbs 30-32

If you have been foolish, exalting yourself, or if you have been devising evil, put your hand on your mouth. Put your hands on your mouth Never use your own mouth to speak bad of yourself. Do not speak against your own self, Heart and mouth are connected. Be saved. Faith, Heart, Mouth. Have faith and believe.....

Amen!

From my mom’s notes, the one that stood out to me the most was “Proverbs 15-28

The heart of the righteous ponders how to answer, but the mouth of the wicked pours out evil things. Study how to answer.” I almost never have a quick come-back which now I see is a good thing since a come-back would probably be negative. I’m glad to say that I always ponder about how to answer, it never comes quick. I thought I was just slow when it came to things like that, but I’m not ashamed and I’m not slow. I’m just me and I’m more than ok with that. I’d rather not offend people…even if they offend me. I sometimes hope that my ways can rub off on others…that by oozing positivity can make others positive. Anything is possible. God created this world in 7 days didn’t he?

True Calling Signs 9/22/2010

I've mentioned before that I want to know what my true calling is and embrace it. I've totally connected to this article today on dailyom.com - it's in blue below. I definitely have had those moments where I've tried something out and I was a mess. I would get sick, have anxiety, and start having health problems. Then I realized that it's not meant to be or not the right time at least. This has happened to me twice this year. Once I was starting a part-time weekend position at a salon in addition to my current full time job. It's started off ok - then as a few weeks went by I started feeling sick every morning before I would go in - I felt this was a sign for a while, but proceeded to continue. Finally I was starting to have stomach and anxiety issues and decided that either it's not the right time or it's not meant to be. Since then, I've been doing freelance work which I enjoy and in good health.

The next time I had a similar experience of feeling even worst than the last was when I spontaneously adopted a puppy. I went to work the next morning and started feeling sick, and crying, and thinking about her being home alone and about the kitchen (where we kept her) and again about if this was the right time for all this. I spoke with my husband and he had similar feelings, but wanted it to work out as much as I did.  We made the decision to take her back to the exact same place we got her from on the 3rd day. At least we did it in time where they would still take her back and I wouldn't have to worry about what would happen to her anywhere else. It really did break my heart. I still I feel bad about it, but it was the right thing and I felt better afterwards. Maybe sometime in the future will be the right time to try again.

The irony is, in one respect I'm trying to find myself & my true calling and in another respect - I know exactly who I am. There are so many trials in life that we go through, but I don't regret anything - it makes me who I am today and I love me!

Enjoy the article below:


September 22, 2010Opening the Door
Fighting Against Our Gifts


As human beings we often have a tendency to fight against using our natural gifts. Many stories of success start with an individual who is ignoring the call of his or her inborn abilities. There are many possible reasons for this resistance, from fear that the calling will be too difficult to a disbelief in the very work one is being asked to do. We may feel too small, too distracted by other people’s ideas about what we should do, or too uninformed. Whatever the case, the resistance to actualizing ourselves has very concrete consequences, and many of us have been called out of hiding by an illness or a twist of fate that unequivocally dismantled our resistance. In other the words, the universe knocks, and if we don’t answer it knocks louder.

For example, if you are meant to be a psychic or a medium, and you aren’t using that gift, you may get headaches. If you are meant to be a healer and are trying to be a lawyer, you may have trouble getting or keeping a job. This doesn’t mean that you can’t still be a lawyer, but perhaps integrating your gifts into your work is what is calling you. On the other hand, you may simply feel an underlying anxiety that you are not on the right path, doing the right thing. Pay attention to this feeling, and ask for guidance from the universe, being open to all its communications, from subtle internal yearnings to powerful dreams. As you begin to risk opening the door to your natural gifts, your life situation may shift in a powerful way. However, you may find that small steps in the right direction, such as taking a class or setting aside one night a week to paint or write, is enough for now.

The first step on the journey to our calling in life is to listen to our internal voices and respond to the knocking universe at the door. As we do, the symptoms and anxieties that have haunted us will fade into the background, replaced by opportunities, both big and small, to open the door to what we are truly here to do.


Are you fighting your natural born gifts? Open to them and watch your world unfold into the flow.

Positive Spurts

Keeping it positive – always. Seeing the cup as half-full.

I love helping others and would like to strive to do that always as much as I can. Thinking about what kind of groups / clubs I can join to be more active with my community.


Don’t promise anything that you can’t follow through with - be honest. The truth is the only way.


Happy Birthday to my Nephew today – when I called him this morning he was so happy that he was going to the zoo today. He had called me on Sunday to invite me to go to the zoo as he proceeded to tell me about the bears and the crocodile. I felt so special that he thought of me! 

Well off to bed now. Good night!

Inspire

So I started this Blog today- http://triplestrengthdose.blogspot.com/- this can help me keep my thoughts down. It's another outlet - but would go hand in hand with my book. My lovely dear god-mother and aunt sent me an inspirational e-mail from this website - www.dailyom.com. It reads:

(September 16, 2010)
The Miracle of Change
Boredom

The feeling of boredom is often misunderstood and can actually mean we need to look under the layers for change.

Sometimes we feel that things aren't moving along fast enough for us and that the world is passing us by. It may be that time seems to stand still and that we are simply bystanders in our own lives. Other times it might appear that there is nothing new left for us to experience and that we are locked into a never-ending cycle of stasis. If we take the time to listen to these feelings we will notice that there is probably more going on beneath the surface, like our apprehension to venture out into the unknown. By taking a new look at how we live our lives, however, it will be easier to break through our sense of boredom and enter into a more positive state of being.

When life seems monotonous, it is usually an indication that there is something we need to change. Boredom can easily lead us down the path to despondency. Acknowledging our feelings and then setting the intention to alter just one small thing in our life can give us a much more affirmative outlook. This act of change allows us to step outside of ourselves and discover new and exciting things that are often already present in our everyday lives. Simple things such as eating a healthier diet, taking a new class, or joining a club are all ways in which we can go beyond our comfort zone and explore the wonders that exist all around us. Keep in mind that the moment we do something different from our usual routine, the more fresh energy, hope, and blessings we will manifest in our life. What this means is that we'll no longer see things as being tedious but will instead realize the preciousness of everything.

Being able to integrate these subtle changes on a daily basis allows us to recognize the miracles that are our lives. Even though we may think of change as doing something life-altering or drastic, gentle transitions from our habitual ways of doing things and an appreciation of all life offers us will truly bring about positive and lasting transformation.

(Passage ends here) 

This is so awesome that she sends me this link as I'm more inspired to keep writing about life. This is exactly what I want to write about; my perspective on life, etc. Is this classified as philosophy?

Side Note about my day: So I'm at work, and I get bad news... then 5 minutes later and I get good news. There will always be good or great opportunities after bad news. When one door closes, another one opens. Keep it positive always. There is power in positivity. And what's wrong with complimenting someone on their accomplishments no matter how small or how large? You shouldn't worry about what anyone thinks or says that's negative. Just shrug off negative vibes and ignorant comments and keep it moving. By the way, I know I haven’t mentioned this yet, but my current position is a health care recruiter (8 years). Also, I’m a licensed freelance cosmetologist on the side. I currently take guitar lessons as well – still in beginner mode – I want to sing and play as many songs as I can learn.

I just finished practicing Waterfalls (TLC), Hey Soul Sista (Train), and Feliz Navidad on the guitar...I feel like I'm freeing my soul when I play. It feels great!

I want to write!

I want to write about life, love, and family. I feel that I have a lot to offer this world and this topic is of such importance to me that I feel writing is the perfect outlet. Then why not make it available for anyone to read if they want. If not - at least I know that my thoughts are written down somewhere for me to refer back to and listen to my own advice. One of the things I want to accomplish is figuring out my purpose here in life; what is my calling? I think that writing will help me figure this out with time. Sometimes I truly have so many things that I want to do and why shouldn't I? Who's to say you have to choose?? After all, this world and this life is our playground that allows us to explore new adventures all around us as well as our potential within.