Today I spoke to God 9/30/2010

On my way to work this morning I turned off the radio and decided to say some prayers and talk to God.  I thanked him for every single person around me and for everything that we have around us.  One of the people I thanked God for was my Husband; and how from the time I was a teenager I would pray that I would find my true love and marry in my early 20’s - That’s exactly how it happened. We met when I was 19, almost 20 and we got married at 22. To this day I know that he’s the one for me forever and I’m truly blessed. The next person I was thankful for was my Mom. I love my mom. She is who I’ve always inspired to be like. I hope I’ve made her proud. She was there 100% always, no matter what – and still is. She knows what to say, when to say and how to say.  I hope everyone knows how special they are!

It’s almost noon now and I just received a message from my wonderful husband that reads: “Babe I am so blessed and thankful to have you in my life. I love everything about us and wouldn’t change anything for the world. Love u” – it’s just so crazy how our minds are so much in-sync and how we think similar things at the same times. That just makes me so happy that I never have to question our love for each other – Thank you God for this wonderful partner in life.

Advice to you: Please be thankful for everyone and everything around you! And don't be shy to talk to your God - God will always listen.

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After reading this post Mom writes:

Cat,

I am so blessed to have wonderful children like you, Mando and Jessica in my life. You made tears come into my eyes just reading how you described your mom. I wish I had done more..... I know what kind of daughter I have, one with a good head on her shoulders, one that is responsible, a survivor and independent.....Love you to the moon and back....

Mom

Then I respond:

Mom,

I want you to know that YOU DID ENOUGH! Don't ever think otherwise. That's why I'm me - because of you! Thank you! I'm also thankful to have siblings like Mando and Jessica as well as I'm thankful you have a partner that shows you the true meaning of love in every which way. I have it and always wished it for you because it's such a wonderful thing!

Love ya, Cat

*Thanks Babe for your lovely comment to my blog post!

What to do? 9/29/2010

9/29/2010

What to do? I don’t like asking myself this question, because I’d rather focus on getting things done. It is a general question as well. I feel like I need to look at my goals again for the next 5-10 years and just solidify them a bit. This will help lead me in the direction in which I would like to go – it works well for me. And if I need to make changes along the way… its ok – nothing is concrete in life. I would like to just list some ideas of what I would like to accomplish in the near future:

Next 1-2 years: Make sure that I’m happy with my rewarding career – if changes need to be made, then so be it.

Get involved with a church. Continue advancing with guitar + singing.  Pay off all debt. Travel to Europe – 2-3 weeks if possible. Make sure all home improvement projects are done; inside and out. Continue always to do ALL the artistic-expressive things I love to do.

2-4 Years: Start a family; additions to our family. Don’t stop doing the things I love. 

This is all my notes for now. I will come back to this and re-evaluate to solidify my goals.

Just some motivational advice:

Once you know what you want to do in life – go for it – plan it out.  I believe that everything take steps. It you fail a few times –its ok, get back on track and keep going until you reach your destination. Always remember to be yourself!

I’ve been asking myself – what do I really want to do in life and I find myself thinking in circles. I know that this isn’t it – I know there’s more. I know that I want to help people in some way, shape, or form. Just can’t find the answer to my question. I’m praying that God can help show me what my purpose is and I’ll work on getting there.

God's Work

This weekend started off with the celebration of my nephew's 3rd birthday. I did get some one-on-one play time with him in the backyard before guests came. I couldn't sit down before he would tell me to get up and play again- I loved it - especially when he went to catch a mini-basketball and turned around and said he got dizzy. I'm glad I was able to happily play with him for a while. It was also nice celebrating my aunt / God-mother's birthday at the same time who is also very special. We all had a nice time with each other. 

 

Early Sunday  I spent the majority of the day with my loving husband. He is good to me - I thank God for him everyday. It was a somewhat sad day when I found out that a very close friend of mine's mother passed exactly 7 days ago. I felt horrible that I didn't even know, that I wasn't there for her. Later on I felt the need to surprise her and go see her (almost like God was leading me to her). I took a rose plant, donuts, and a card - she was happy to see me and we talked a while. I got to know her dad, sister and saw her kids again. It did feel good and I hope that our friendship continues to grow stronger. She is a genuinely good person. My husband understood what I had to do this day - he has always supported my every step / decision in life. He also brings logic and reason when I need it.

 

I feel light being shed to help lead my way more and more...day by day... by God. Spoke to mom yesterday and she invited me to view the mass from her church that she attended Sunday. I'm happy to hear her talk about the sermon that was delivered - she's very excited about it and that's great. I actually did stay up to watch the mass and I was enlightened - it did feel great. I want to be closer to the Lord and understand his word and his workings. Check out the videos on traps and tricks (from mom's church) - this can help us become stronger in realizing the evil and resisting temptations around us.

Link: http://livestream.mediambc.com/Live_Stream/Archives.html - there are 7 parts on the right side of the viewing window that you can watch. Enjoy!

 

Currently, I'm looking for a church. Today I asked my supervisor about his church and he thought I would love it. I also am going to contact a friend about her church. I will do some research to find the right fit with God's help and guidance.

 

Thank you God for everything in my life and for being there for me at all times. I'm on the right path.

'To get something you never had, you have to do something you never did.' Just got this message via text this evening from 3. Love it! Will continue tomorrow!

Proverbs 9/24/2010

A friend read my blog on 9/22 about the article “Opening the Door; Fighting Against Our Gifts” and recommended a good read “The Alchemist” by Paulo Coelho. Just in reading the intro it begins to discuss God’s gifts and how we naturally fight against them. I only got to page 10 since I was having a great time puppy-sitting 3-month old Maggie last night. All she wanted to do was play and that’s exactly what I was there for. Therefore, I look forward to picking up that book tonight again.

Today is starting off slow, but I know that it will be a great day. Thank you God for my gifts and my life. I just wanted to mention that my mom was recently inspired to start writing as well and started going back to church on Sundays (which I want to do as well). Here are her notes from mass that she sent me:

Sunday – July 19, 2010

Proverbs 18-6

A fool’s lips walk into a fight, and his mouth invites a beating.

Proverbs – 18-7

A fool’s mouth is his ruin, and his lips are a snare to his soul.

Words – (mouth) speaks from the heart....

The Fools mouth – say no God, do not seek God – worry, fear and negativity.

Genesis 3-23

Words are powerful – my words

Proverbs 18 -21

Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruits.

 Death and life power of the tongue live with the consequences

Proverbs 6-2

For the LORD gives wisdom; from his mouth come knowledge and understanding;

Snare and taken words of the mouth. My words.

Need to guard & watch our words and mouth

Proverbs 13-3

He who guards his lips guards his life, but he who speaks rashly will come to ruin.

Guards mouth

Proverbs 21-23

He who guards his mouth and his tongue keeps himself from calamity.

Keep soul from trouble

Preserve life and qualify of life. Keep out of trouble

1. Limit – our words # of words. More you talk more you sin
2. Measure  - are the words appropriate
3. Qualify – pass certain criteria – certain grade, standard

You can have what you say.

Proverbs 15-28

The heart of the righteous ponders how to answer, but the mouth of the wicked pours out evil things. Study how to answer.

Proverbs 16-23

The heart of the wise makes his speech judicious and adds persuasiveness to his lips.

Learning to his lips. Allow for time for your heart to study what you are going to answer. Choose words of life. Don’t set a snare for you soul.

Proverbs 30-32

If you have been foolish, exalting yourself, or if you have been devising evil, put your hand on your mouth. Put your hands on your mouth Never use your own mouth to speak bad of yourself. Do not speak against your own self, Heart and mouth are connected. Be saved. Faith, Heart, Mouth. Have faith and believe.....

Amen!

From my mom’s notes, the one that stood out to me the most was “Proverbs 15-28

The heart of the righteous ponders how to answer, but the mouth of the wicked pours out evil things. Study how to answer.” I almost never have a quick come-back which now I see is a good thing since a come-back would probably be negative. I’m glad to say that I always ponder about how to answer, it never comes quick. I thought I was just slow when it came to things like that, but I’m not ashamed and I’m not slow. I’m just me and I’m more than ok with that. I’d rather not offend people…even if they offend me. I sometimes hope that my ways can rub off on others…that by oozing positivity can make others positive. Anything is possible. God created this world in 7 days didn’t he?

True Calling Signs 9/22/2010

I've mentioned before that I want to know what my true calling is and embrace it. I've totally connected to this article today on dailyom.com - it's in blue below. I definitely have had those moments where I've tried something out and I was a mess. I would get sick, have anxiety, and start having health problems. Then I realized that it's not meant to be or not the right time at least. This has happened to me twice this year. Once I was starting a part-time weekend position at a salon in addition to my current full time job. It's started off ok - then as a few weeks went by I started feeling sick every morning before I would go in - I felt this was a sign for a while, but proceeded to continue. Finally I was starting to have stomach and anxiety issues and decided that either it's not the right time or it's not meant to be. Since then, I've been doing freelance work which I enjoy and in good health.

The next time I had a similar experience of feeling even worst than the last was when I spontaneously adopted a puppy. I went to work the next morning and started feeling sick, and crying, and thinking about her being home alone and about the kitchen (where we kept her) and again about if this was the right time for all this. I spoke with my husband and he had similar feelings, but wanted it to work out as much as I did.  We made the decision to take her back to the exact same place we got her from on the 3rd day. At least we did it in time where they would still take her back and I wouldn't have to worry about what would happen to her anywhere else. It really did break my heart. I still I feel bad about it, but it was the right thing and I felt better afterwards. Maybe sometime in the future will be the right time to try again.

The irony is, in one respect I'm trying to find myself & my true calling and in another respect - I know exactly who I am. There are so many trials in life that we go through, but I don't regret anything - it makes me who I am today and I love me!

Enjoy the article below:


September 22, 2010Opening the Door
Fighting Against Our Gifts


As human beings we often have a tendency to fight against using our natural gifts. Many stories of success start with an individual who is ignoring the call of his or her inborn abilities. There are many possible reasons for this resistance, from fear that the calling will be too difficult to a disbelief in the very work one is being asked to do. We may feel too small, too distracted by other people’s ideas about what we should do, or too uninformed. Whatever the case, the resistance to actualizing ourselves has very concrete consequences, and many of us have been called out of hiding by an illness or a twist of fate that unequivocally dismantled our resistance. In other the words, the universe knocks, and if we don’t answer it knocks louder.

For example, if you are meant to be a psychic or a medium, and you aren’t using that gift, you may get headaches. If you are meant to be a healer and are trying to be a lawyer, you may have trouble getting or keeping a job. This doesn’t mean that you can’t still be a lawyer, but perhaps integrating your gifts into your work is what is calling you. On the other hand, you may simply feel an underlying anxiety that you are not on the right path, doing the right thing. Pay attention to this feeling, and ask for guidance from the universe, being open to all its communications, from subtle internal yearnings to powerful dreams. As you begin to risk opening the door to your natural gifts, your life situation may shift in a powerful way. However, you may find that small steps in the right direction, such as taking a class or setting aside one night a week to paint or write, is enough for now.

The first step on the journey to our calling in life is to listen to our internal voices and respond to the knocking universe at the door. As we do, the symptoms and anxieties that have haunted us will fade into the background, replaced by opportunities, both big and small, to open the door to what we are truly here to do.


Are you fighting your natural born gifts? Open to them and watch your world unfold into the flow.

Positive Spurts

Keeping it positive – always. Seeing the cup as half-full.

I love helping others and would like to strive to do that always as much as I can. Thinking about what kind of groups / clubs I can join to be more active with my community.


Don’t promise anything that you can’t follow through with - be honest. The truth is the only way.


Happy Birthday to my Nephew today – when I called him this morning he was so happy that he was going to the zoo today. He had called me on Sunday to invite me to go to the zoo as he proceeded to tell me about the bears and the crocodile. I felt so special that he thought of me! 

Well off to bed now. Good night!

Inspire

So I started this Blog today- http://triplestrengthdose.blogspot.com/- this can help me keep my thoughts down. It's another outlet - but would go hand in hand with my book. My lovely dear god-mother and aunt sent me an inspirational e-mail from this website - www.dailyom.com. It reads:

(September 16, 2010)
The Miracle of Change
Boredom

The feeling of boredom is often misunderstood and can actually mean we need to look under the layers for change.

Sometimes we feel that things aren't moving along fast enough for us and that the world is passing us by. It may be that time seems to stand still and that we are simply bystanders in our own lives. Other times it might appear that there is nothing new left for us to experience and that we are locked into a never-ending cycle of stasis. If we take the time to listen to these feelings we will notice that there is probably more going on beneath the surface, like our apprehension to venture out into the unknown. By taking a new look at how we live our lives, however, it will be easier to break through our sense of boredom and enter into a more positive state of being.

When life seems monotonous, it is usually an indication that there is something we need to change. Boredom can easily lead us down the path to despondency. Acknowledging our feelings and then setting the intention to alter just one small thing in our life can give us a much more affirmative outlook. This act of change allows us to step outside of ourselves and discover new and exciting things that are often already present in our everyday lives. Simple things such as eating a healthier diet, taking a new class, or joining a club are all ways in which we can go beyond our comfort zone and explore the wonders that exist all around us. Keep in mind that the moment we do something different from our usual routine, the more fresh energy, hope, and blessings we will manifest in our life. What this means is that we'll no longer see things as being tedious but will instead realize the preciousness of everything.

Being able to integrate these subtle changes on a daily basis allows us to recognize the miracles that are our lives. Even though we may think of change as doing something life-altering or drastic, gentle transitions from our habitual ways of doing things and an appreciation of all life offers us will truly bring about positive and lasting transformation.

(Passage ends here) 

This is so awesome that she sends me this link as I'm more inspired to keep writing about life. This is exactly what I want to write about; my perspective on life, etc. Is this classified as philosophy?

Side Note about my day: So I'm at work, and I get bad news... then 5 minutes later and I get good news. There will always be good or great opportunities after bad news. When one door closes, another one opens. Keep it positive always. There is power in positivity. And what's wrong with complimenting someone on their accomplishments no matter how small or how large? You shouldn't worry about what anyone thinks or says that's negative. Just shrug off negative vibes and ignorant comments and keep it moving. By the way, I know I haven’t mentioned this yet, but my current position is a health care recruiter (8 years). Also, I’m a licensed freelance cosmetologist on the side. I currently take guitar lessons as well – still in beginner mode – I want to sing and play as many songs as I can learn.

I just finished practicing Waterfalls (TLC), Hey Soul Sista (Train), and Feliz Navidad on the guitar...I feel like I'm freeing my soul when I play. It feels great!

I want to write!

I want to write about life, love, and family. I feel that I have a lot to offer this world and this topic is of such importance to me that I feel writing is the perfect outlet. Then why not make it available for anyone to read if they want. If not - at least I know that my thoughts are written down somewhere for me to refer back to and listen to my own advice. One of the things I want to accomplish is figuring out my purpose here in life; what is my calling? I think that writing will help me figure this out with time. Sometimes I truly have so many things that I want to do and why shouldn't I? Who's to say you have to choose?? After all, this world and this life is our playground that allows us to explore new adventures all around us as well as our potential within.