True Calling Signs 9/22/2010

I've mentioned before that I want to know what my true calling is and embrace it. I've totally connected to this article today on dailyom.com - it's in blue below. I definitely have had those moments where I've tried something out and I was a mess. I would get sick, have anxiety, and start having health problems. Then I realized that it's not meant to be or not the right time at least. This has happened to me twice this year. Once I was starting a part-time weekend position at a salon in addition to my current full time job. It's started off ok - then as a few weeks went by I started feeling sick every morning before I would go in - I felt this was a sign for a while, but proceeded to continue. Finally I was starting to have stomach and anxiety issues and decided that either it's not the right time or it's not meant to be. Since then, I've been doing freelance work which I enjoy and in good health.

The next time I had a similar experience of feeling even worst than the last was when I spontaneously adopted a puppy. I went to work the next morning and started feeling sick, and crying, and thinking about her being home alone and about the kitchen (where we kept her) and again about if this was the right time for all this. I spoke with my husband and he had similar feelings, but wanted it to work out as much as I did.  We made the decision to take her back to the exact same place we got her from on the 3rd day. At least we did it in time where they would still take her back and I wouldn't have to worry about what would happen to her anywhere else. It really did break my heart. I still I feel bad about it, but it was the right thing and I felt better afterwards. Maybe sometime in the future will be the right time to try again.

The irony is, in one respect I'm trying to find myself & my true calling and in another respect - I know exactly who I am. There are so many trials in life that we go through, but I don't regret anything - it makes me who I am today and I love me!

Enjoy the article below:


September 22, 2010Opening the Door
Fighting Against Our Gifts


As human beings we often have a tendency to fight against using our natural gifts. Many stories of success start with an individual who is ignoring the call of his or her inborn abilities. There are many possible reasons for this resistance, from fear that the calling will be too difficult to a disbelief in the very work one is being asked to do. We may feel too small, too distracted by other people’s ideas about what we should do, or too uninformed. Whatever the case, the resistance to actualizing ourselves has very concrete consequences, and many of us have been called out of hiding by an illness or a twist of fate that unequivocally dismantled our resistance. In other the words, the universe knocks, and if we don’t answer it knocks louder.

For example, if you are meant to be a psychic or a medium, and you aren’t using that gift, you may get headaches. If you are meant to be a healer and are trying to be a lawyer, you may have trouble getting or keeping a job. This doesn’t mean that you can’t still be a lawyer, but perhaps integrating your gifts into your work is what is calling you. On the other hand, you may simply feel an underlying anxiety that you are not on the right path, doing the right thing. Pay attention to this feeling, and ask for guidance from the universe, being open to all its communications, from subtle internal yearnings to powerful dreams. As you begin to risk opening the door to your natural gifts, your life situation may shift in a powerful way. However, you may find that small steps in the right direction, such as taking a class or setting aside one night a week to paint or write, is enough for now.

The first step on the journey to our calling in life is to listen to our internal voices and respond to the knocking universe at the door. As we do, the symptoms and anxieties that have haunted us will fade into the background, replaced by opportunities, both big and small, to open the door to what we are truly here to do.


Are you fighting your natural born gifts? Open to them and watch your world unfold into the flow.