My Favorite time of the year

It's my favorite time of the year and my loved ones will soon be near. I can't wait, but when the time comes may it stand still, and then take its time. It will be a fabulous 2 weeks away with the fam. The holidays is when I tend to get more sentimental because they are all usually so far away. I hope I don't sound too corny. (smile)

I hope they know how special and important they are to me. It has been 6 years and at times it's still so difficult. They are not just a phone call or even a drive away where I can say hey let's meet up later and go for lunch or dinner or shopping. It would be a 20 hour drive or a 3 1/2 hour airplane ride.

So Lord help me, I pray that our trip works out and nothing comes in the way , 21 days away and I will feel complete :)

I look to you for guidance, strength, and wisdom always. May everyone be blessed with health and happiness.

Love
Cat

Thankful for you!

The best gift in life are the special people around you so don't forget to let them know who they are - but not just today, everyday. You're special and I love you! Thank you Lord!

Just a few words can say a lot...

"I am beautiful no matter what they say" (Christina Aguilera). Just look in the mirror and say that to yourself every day. Love yourself, Jesus loves you unconditionally. When you're feeling down or low - just think of all the positive and great things in your life right away and get happy!! It's starting to work for me. The other things don't matter anymore. I constantly feel like my soul is evolving and maturing in a great direction.

VENT ~ Then Good News!

WHY? HOW? UUURRGGGGHHHH! and VENT! Then Good News!

I don't get it...how do people get away with murder? Let's do away with the negativity... Let's see - with God's guidance, strength and protection. That's what keeps me going.

A true team will work hard together towards a common goal supporting each others functions for the best outcome at all times. If not, the scale becomes unbalanced and will eventually topple over.

Good - News; I learned a new Christmas song on the guitar - that's 4! So now I can play: (1) Feliz Navidad, (2) White Christmas, (3) Jingle bell Rock, (4) Rocking around the Christmas tree! WOOOHOOOO! It's going so well... I look forward to learning more. I just have to make sure that I put much practice time aside to get better and better. 

Life has fastballs, curve balls, softballs, and foul balls. It's you're responsibility to do the right thing and make the right call. Love life, live life, make the most of it and be thankful always. 

Reminisce... then HUH?

 

Reminisce - that was the "alter-ego / superstar" nickname I gave myself when I saw myself as a future famous R&B singer...memories...

 

We had our church wedding last year which was more than special and everything I could've expected and more. I felt like I fell short - I wasn't feeling to well this day...my back was in extreme pain, I know I was overworked in trying to get everything ready for the wedding and I didn't get the rest that I needed. I overdid it and was in pain for most of the day with my back hurting and feet cramping... other than that I was very happy and enjoyed. I hope that because of my pain that I didn't come across as distant or "different". I am me and would've gone a little wilder partying if I was 100% - but everything was just as great as was expected! I just want to say sorry if I wasn't as 'amped' as usual :), And I feel horrible that I wanted to cry and tried and nothing, b/c I was so dehydrated - I guess that's a good thing because I didn't mess up my make-up, lol.

 

So I received a call from the doctor's office and the blood work is back - one of the items that my blood was tested for was not detected even though I had the vaccination as a child- STRANGE, but possible in few cases. I had to be part of the few cases- have to get a shot again :- / ... oookkkk.

Bubble

 
41 days to go until I'm on my trip to FLORIDA to see the fam. Next two year's vacation will be Europe & Cancun - hopefully...that's the plan anyway. 
 
Well, my head feels like its spinning - so much going on and so much to do. Just went for blood work the day before yesterday, I was sooo nervous. About 5 years ago, I tried to donate blood and it was a horrible experience. I wanted it to work so bad- but I started feeling faint and had to stop mid-way because I felt like I was going to faint. Well guess what - yesterday was no problem - piece of cake!! Well I also know that the difference in needle size is way different. Butterfly needles... no problem! Just don't get me near an IV. Last year when we came back from DR early due to my acute bronchitis, I couldn't hold anything down - not even water - I was so dehydrated so it was that much harder to find my veins. It took 4-5 people to poke me to get the needle in and it was very painful. 
 
I feel so trapped right now in my career...I know that's it's just a matter of time until I am where I want to be... so I will try to focus on that. I will also try to focus on all the other positive things going on in my life.
 
But then there's the fact that I'm 27 and still struggling with my weight, I know it's a lifetime effort but I just want to be a size 4 and wear a bikini. I was once a 16/17 and got down to a tight 6/8, now I'm an 8/10 depending on the brand, why is it so hard now to get down to that 4??!!! Hopefully I can do it before I have kids!! I woke up a little grumpy this morning and feeling fat, I was a bit rude to my love and I feel horrible because I shouldn't take it out on him... so babe - I'm so sorry! I love you. See I'm not perfect, everyone makes mistakes.
 
So far 2 work-out nights this week dancing with the new Dance Central game on xbox Kinect which is my fave so far, a little achy but that's to be expected.
 
Now I need to get out of this bubble that I'm in... Let's DO IT!!! POP POP POP!!!
 
 

Exhaustion

Wow this weekend sure was exhausting... lots of housework going on with the bathroom mini renovation. We got a new bathtub and hubby and father-in-law tackled it while I scraped wall paper in the downstairs bathroom. I got almost half of it off - but it's very stubborn! It must have been there forever! I also washed and changed the downstairs curtains. Then I cooked lunch, dinner, and dessert throughout the day. It was non-stop for all of us. Then towards the evening I had about 5 glasses of wine - was feeling good and happy ... and tired.

Well we still have our work cut out for us this week: spackelling, complete wallpaper removal, and then painting. Pheeeewwww - looking forward to being done with that~

To my little Sister & To my little Brother:

To my little Sister:

Little sister I am sorry that through your childhood & adolescent years that I could not be there with you and for you to share all the special moments that sisters should share.

I'm sorry that I couldn't comb your hair before school anymore

I'm sorry that I haven't been able to physically be there for you

I hope you know that I've missed you and I've missed spending so much time with you.

I hope that hasn't affected you in the long run, and I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive me.

I had hoped that we hadn't sheltered you when you were in NY because we loved you too much and as a result you were extremely shy.

I hope you know that I love you and I sometimes still see you as my little 'baby' sister.

I see how you've grown and I see how beautiful you have grown inside and out as you've come out of your shell. 
Don't rush to grow up, take life as it comes and make the best of every day and moment - time flies.

You've matured and have proven yourself to be caring, loving, loyal, intelligent, respectful, considerate, fun - and so much more that I could've hoped  you would become. 

Which I'm so happy for!  

I look forward to continuously watching you grow and succeed in everything that you do. Strive for the best - because YOU CAN accomplish anything that you set your mind to.

I love you and keep on going Sis! P.S. See you soon!

To my little Brother:

To my little brother I am sorry that we didn't get to spend our early adulthood together and that I haven't been near to share all the special moments that I've missed the past couple of years.

I hope you can forgive me for all the 'sibling rivalry' that we had while growing up together, I guess that's a part of growing up

I hope that you forgive me for the horrible names I've called you when we would argue - I am truly sorry, and I didn't mean it.

I hope you know that even with all that, I always looked out for you and wanted nothing but to protect you

I'm sorry that I couldn't protect you from everything

I'm sorry if I made it seem that I didn't want you to tag along when I went out alone or with friends- I actually preferred that you came, I felt more comfortable. 

I was more upset that I wasn't trusted to go out alone.

Now that I'm older I understand that it wasn't that they didn't trust me, it was that there are lots of crazy things that happen in this world - and that is true. They just wanted to protect us.  

I've seen you evolve into this fun, caring, intelligent, diligent, responsible, providing young man - this is a lot more that I could've hoped for you and congrats!

I'm happy for you and will always wish the best for you! Continue to Always strive for the best - because YOU CAN accomplish anything that you set your mind to.

I love you Bro and see you soon!

Who's listening?

Well I know that Hubby and Mom tune in to my Blog as well as my Aunt sometimes. I know that God is the first to know what I feel and when I'm writing here. SO... who else? Well, either way ... it doesn't matter - whoever does - great - and I hope that you find out who I really am on the inside. Also hoping to give some good advice when I can. Who ever doesn't- that's ok- if it's not meant to be than it's not meant for you. :)


Here's my plan before going to Florida for the holidays: To get in better shape and lose a few pounds. I'm not using a scale, I'm going by how I feel in my clothes and how I feel in general. We went grocery shopping and we bought the norm food (healthy), fruits, veggies, juices (trying to minimize my soda intake).


So I started the gym (again) on Monday 11/1/2010 (DAY 1) and ran for 10 whole minutes straight, which is good for not having gone to the gym in almost 2 months! I did 22 min in total on the treadmill and then the last 10 minutes of cardio on the eliptical. In total I did 2 miles and burned about 220 calories. It fealt great! Tropical smoothie Cafe - Smoothie (w/splenda) for dinner.


Tuesday 11/2/2010 (DAY 2) - went back to the gym and alternated smaller jogging /walking intervals - kept myself on point - total 25min on treadmill, 8 minutes on Eliptical. I did about 2 miles and burned another 200 cals. Tropical smoothie Cafe - Smoothie (w/splenda) for dinner, then later on a bowl of cereal.

Yesterday, (Wed. 11/3/2010) I took a break, had 2 haircut appointments which turned out great! I had 1 home-made taco for dinner...so far I've noticed a large decrease in appetite which is good as long as I make sure to eat enough and to eat healthy. I know it, and I can feel that I'm on the right track!


I also continued my school research and I need to take about 4 pre-requisites before I can apply to the health program that I wish to apply for. It may not be until Spring or Fall 2012 that I begin the actual degree program - but that's ok because there is no rush!

Future Plans

I was having a frustrating day so I am writing because I need to vent a bit. Why aren't people recognized enough for the difference they make and for the work they do? Ok, I'm DONE! I won't mention any other negative things here. This is not what I want to do here today. Let me talk about something positive that's going on with me. Well...I paid off my credit cards today (only one left to pay off). Then I will work on getting the car payments and school loans down and eventually done with. Lets see if the plan works!

The plan is to go for the career for my lifetime that will be my main career and hopefully have our child by 3 - 4 years. That career that I'm seriously considering is NURSING!! By that time my car will be paid off and the only debt should be school and mortgage. Looking forward to this feels good.

The next great thing is that there at 48 Days to go until we go to Florida for the holidays to be with my lovely family. I can't wait. My favorite holidays are coming up very soon: Mom's birthday, Thanksgiving, and Christmas!

Thanks and have a great day!

By the way y'all - I WON FIRST PLACE FOR THE HALLOWEEN CONTEST AT WORK WHERE I DRESSED UP AS CHARLIE CHAPLIN last Friday!! WOOOHOOOO!!!!!!

Can't Wait!

I think that part of my lonliness is due to the fact that I haven't seen most of my immediate family in over a year. I usually don't go that long without seeing them...I miss them so very much...Do you know what its like to have your immediate family so far away that its not as easy to see them as often as you'd like or as often as you've been used to? I've grown very strong through the years and have learned to live with it, but sometimes its just not easy. What helps me is that I have them close in my heart always carrying them with me everywhere I go with everything I do. That's part of why today I am a strong independant woman. On my own since 21 with the wonderful support of my hubby. Can't wait to finally see my family for the holidays in December!

Love you all and see you soon!

To My Love: thanks for the comment below, of course I appreciate you being my perfect match- you make me stronger by making sure that I always feel loved and that I'm always ok. I love you~