Bubble

 
41 days to go until I'm on my trip to FLORIDA to see the fam. Next two year's vacation will be Europe & Cancun - hopefully...that's the plan anyway. 
 
Well, my head feels like its spinning - so much going on and so much to do. Just went for blood work the day before yesterday, I was sooo nervous. About 5 years ago, I tried to donate blood and it was a horrible experience. I wanted it to work so bad- but I started feeling faint and had to stop mid-way because I felt like I was going to faint. Well guess what - yesterday was no problem - piece of cake!! Well I also know that the difference in needle size is way different. Butterfly needles... no problem! Just don't get me near an IV. Last year when we came back from DR early due to my acute bronchitis, I couldn't hold anything down - not even water - I was so dehydrated so it was that much harder to find my veins. It took 4-5 people to poke me to get the needle in and it was very painful. 
 
I feel so trapped right now in my career...I know that's it's just a matter of time until I am where I want to be... so I will try to focus on that. I will also try to focus on all the other positive things going on in my life.
 
But then there's the fact that I'm 27 and still struggling with my weight, I know it's a lifetime effort but I just want to be a size 4 and wear a bikini. I was once a 16/17 and got down to a tight 6/8, now I'm an 8/10 depending on the brand, why is it so hard now to get down to that 4??!!! Hopefully I can do it before I have kids!! I woke up a little grumpy this morning and feeling fat, I was a bit rude to my love and I feel horrible because I shouldn't take it out on him... so babe - I'm so sorry! I love you. See I'm not perfect, everyone makes mistakes.
 
So far 2 work-out nights this week dancing with the new Dance Central game on xbox Kinect which is my fave so far, a little achy but that's to be expected.
 
Now I need to get out of this bubble that I'm in... Let's DO IT!!! POP POP POP!!!